Success!

So I count today as a success lol.  We cut the tops off of Logans last 2 sippy cups this morning!  Which means no more laying down with milk.  See there are several bad reasons why it's bad for him to take milk to bed

1. we were going through crazy amounts of milk...especially if he woke up multiple times a night.
2. I'm hoping the reason he's STILL waking up 4 or 5 times a night is because of the milk
3. when he would be half asleep he'd dribble milk out of the side of his mouth onto his pillow...thus soaking his head in the process...by the time morning comes you have crusty spoiled milk smelling hair ...thus lots of baths.  Oh and his shirts/blankets would smell like it too.
4. I would still have to change his diaper in the middle of the night because of the milk intake or else he and his sheets/pillow/blanket would be soaked...which means more laundry.
5. it's just not good for them...but I fell into the habit.  You'd think I would have learned with Doug and Bekah (they took milk to bed too) but apparently not!

So anyway, we cut the tops off like I said (more for me so I wouldn't give in and give them to him) said bye bye and told him he's a big boy now, and only babies take sippies.  Nap time went pretty smoothly.  I only had to go in there once and remind him that the cups were gone and he's a big boy now.  Bed time...not quite so easy...which I'm sure in part is because he and Doug are sharing a room now.  He did some crying, a lot of talking to Doug when the poor guy was trying to fall asleep, and a little bit of fussing in the end.  Took over an hour for him to quiet down and go to sleep but he did!  yay!  Or at least I'm assuming he's asleep lol I havent heard anything in at least 10 min. 

So anyway.  Off to the gym tomorrow if everyone is healthy!  Logan had a touch of a fever this evening (99) but that could have easily been caused by the kids playing as hard as they were.  I'm hoping thats what it was anyway....I really dont want my poor boy to be sick again :(.  Logan did GREAT again in daycare on Friday, hardly cried when I dropped him off and didnt fuss at all for the workers, which means I got a full hour of kickboxing in for the first time ever lol.  Tomorrow is step, should be interesting sense I've never done it before.

Jesse's only been gone for about a week and a half...and I swear it seems like it's been 3 times that long!  Hopefully once he gets settled in and we can get a routine going with the chatting and stuff, it will go by faster.  We are lucky we got him home for a full 3 years (almost to the day actually lol) so I guess I cant complain too much.  It just doesnt feel right not having him here though.

Anyway I guess it's time for me to go to bed.  I should try to sleep while I can just in case it's a rough night with Logan.  Hopefully it's not, but one thing motherhood has taught me, dont ever count on a full nights sleep! lol

We Must, We Must, We Must Increase our Bust!!!

LOL So I finally braved the gym again today.  Felt really guilty for not going the past week, and made up for it in spades today!  We got there maybe 5 min before class started.  Logan did his fake cry for a few seconds lol I walked him over to where the kitchen play stuff is, he started to play, I asked if I could leave now and he said yes!  That was the end of it!  They did have to come get a diaper from me sense I forgot to leave them in there haha but other than that he stayed in there the whole 1 1/2 hrs of class!  They said he whined a little bit but nothing too bad.  I never thought I'd be able to do a full YFirm class without being pulled out at least once!

Of course the class kicked my butt....a week of not going to the gym and on top of that I have a cold...which means the cardio part was harder than it normally is.  But hey I finished it and Logan let me!  yay!

He did NOT sleep well once again last night.  I really dont know what the deal with him is and the not sleeping lately.  We are going to move Doug in there with him this weekend though and hopefully that will help!  That and I need to get him off of that damn cup!

Poor kid also has a cold of sorts...but instead of coughing like me, he just has no voice!  So hopefully he'll sleep better tonight.

Didnt get to talk to Jesse at all yesterday...first time thats happened sense he left.  Kinda bummed about it but I'm sure I'll get to talk to him today or tomorrow.

Ok so this post is all over the place!  And I need to go get the kids soon so I should just end it now lol.  Gotta clean up the house while they are doing homework.

Deployment Blues

They have officially set in!  Every time Jesse leaves for more than a few weeks at a time, the first week or so I get what I "fondly" call Deployment Blues.  Kinda like baby blues lol.  Not really a depression, but definitely dont wanna do a damn thing if I dont HAVE to.  Which also means that I've been slacking in the gym department.  I'm determined to go tomorrow though!  And depending on how I'm feeling this afternoon I may go after the older 2 get home from school.  Thankfully the blah feeling doesnt usually last more than a week.  I dont think it helps that the holidays are coming up as well...and thats never easy if you have a loved one over seas.

I know Jesse being gone is effecting Doug too.  He's been VERY emotional the last few days...which once again is totally normal.  He usually comes out of it in a week or two.  It's hard on both of us though until he does.  And of course living with my parents...it's hard on them as well.  Until this point they havent really been around the kids this much.  Yeah we lived with them for 6 months when Jesse got out of the Army after his first 4 years...but there were only two of them then, and they were a lot younger.  So they havent gotten to see Doug in all of his emotional glory before lol. 

I cant help but wonder sometimes if it was the right idea to move here...money or not.  Dont get me wrong, I love my parents and the support they offer....but I know this situation isnt easy on any of us.  We have WAY crowded conditions lol (3 adults and 3 kids living in a 3bd 2 bath house), no one has privacy, it's noisy ALL the time lol.  Which granted the noise I'm used to...but they arent.   Cant help but wonder if we'll make it through this year with our relationship intact (my parents and I lol).  So far so good though.  Yeah there have been a couple bumps but nothing we cant handle.

Either way, I miss my husband.  Having him here for 3 weeks wasnt even close to enough.  It went buy so freaking fast it seemed like he was here for a couple days instead of 21. 

Day Two

No I'm not going to count every single day lol I just couldnt think of a better title right now.  On that subject though, Jesse landed safely in Korea.  I got an email from him around 5ish this morning saying he had made it.  Silly us forgot to get him an international calling card so he couldnt call me when he got there, but I'll take an email any day over nothing lol.

Got back into my normal routine like I said I would.  Logan and I went to the gym this morning for Y Firm.  I showed up 15 min early like usual because normally I have to sit with him for a few min so he wont scream when I walk out of the room lol.  To my surprise he walked in there and said "bye mom!" and didnt even look back!  Little stinker.  So I thought I was golden haha no such luck!  I got called to the daycare at about 9:30....30 min into an hour and a half class.  I tried to calm him down so I could go back, but he wasnt having it so I just had to throw in the towel.  Thankfully the instructor is fantastic so she understood and doesnt mind.   I'm hoping tomorrow goes better!  Although I think tomorrow I'll shoot for getting there 5 min early lol at least if I only stay for 30 min of kickboxing thats half the class!

Day One

So Jesse left for Korea this morning.  As usual the hardest part was watching him say goodbye to the kids....thats a heart breaker every time.  They did amazingly well though....they handled it worse last night when we told them that he was leaving today.  Kids are resilient little things arent they?

I'm actually doing ok....then of course that is able to change at the drop of a hat lol but so far so good.   It's always hard walking away and having to drive back home, but at least we can start counting down the days now. 

Tomorrow is back to my normal routine!  My goal is to go to them gym at least 4 times a week...5 or so would be better but we'll start at 4 lol.  I actually had someone stop me last week and tell me that I looked great and that they could see a difference in the month that I've been taking classes.  Talk about making you feel good!  Right now I go to something called YFirm on Tues and Thurs (it's a low weight, high rep class) then on Wed and Fri I go to kickboxing.  No not 'real' kickboxing lol but cardio.  Either way, it kicks my sorry butt lol and I love it.  Also helps that the instructor is freaking awesome.  I'm looking at going to Step on Monday's as well...we'll see though.

Anyway I'm tired of sitting at the computer lol cant wait to get my laptop!

Nervous wreck!

So the day FINALLY came!  Jesse is on his way here! Woohoo!  But of course today is our first day of "real" snow here....so I will be a nervous wreck until he pulls into the driveway, sometime around midnight tonight lol.  Granted we are only supposed to get an inch or two...and as far as I can tell it's not sticking to the roads (our roads are slushy, but they are dirt) but I also cant help but of course hype myself up and think about them freezing overnight...ugh.  And as if worrying about him driving here isnt bad enough, I'm worried about my mom driving home from work in this crap too lol.  She works up in the Springs (about 45 min North of us) and they always get the weather worse than we do sense they are at a higher elevation and closer to the mountains...ugh.  My stress level has shot wayyyy up today lol.

Here's to hoping everyone in my family makes it home safely tonight, so they can laugh at me for being a worry wart! lol

Countdown!

We are down to under 2 weeks until Jesse gets here!  Yay!  It's been over 2 months right now sense we've seen him, and we all miss him like crazy!  Even though we only get 3 weeks with him until he leaves again I'm planning on enjoying that time as much as I can!  Still not sure how I'll handle it once he leaves here for Korea, but I'm trying my hardest to not think about that right now lol.

It's freezing cold here today...literally lol.  It's 25 right now with a windchill of  14!!  I am NOT used to this kind of weather anymore lol got spoiled living in semi warm places.  Oklahoma it RARELY snowed.  Yeah it got cold, but I think the most snow we ever got there at one time was 3 or 4 inches, and we lived there for 6 years lol.  Here if you get 3 or 4 inches thats considered a "light" snow lol.  Although it doesnt snow that often down here in Pueblo, about as much as it does in MO which is only a couple times a year. 

Going to look at a new van on Monday woohoo.  My dad says it's a steal, so hopefully that will turn out well!  I've been limping along on mine for a while just keeping my fingers crossed that it doesnt die in the middle of the road lol.  That and I ran over a nail at some point last weekend, and of course it's in a spot that cant be repaired...so I was waiting for the 15th to replace it (all of my tires actually...they need it!) so that will save us from shelling out $200 to do that if I get this van.  We werent planning on buying a new car this soon (ok this van isnt new lol but new to us) but when a deal like this falls into your lap it's hard to turn down lol.

The kids are all doing really well...getting excited for Jesse to come out of course!  I went to an IEP meeting for Doug on Tuesday, and was pleasantly surprised at all the good things they had to say about him.  Last year his behavior was horrid at school.  His teachers here though said that he's very well mannered, kind, attentive, and always comes to school ready to work!  Definitely makes me think that his behavior last year was more teacher/school related than him though.  I told them also that he'd been diagnosed with ADHD last year and they were all shocked!  He's been off of his meds for about 6 months now, and is showing no behavioral problems what so ever here.  All in all he just seems happier here than he was in MO, which makes me feel even better about coming here. 

Anyway I hear Logan waking up, guess it's time to get off of here.

Jesse's Blanket

It's finally done!  Yay!  Now of course Bekah says she wants one just like it...please just shoot me now lmao.

Lots to do today!

So I havent posted in a week...and thats not because I forgot, it's because I honestly have nothing to update on lol.  All 3 kids got sick over the weekend, with low grade fevers.  Logan was the only one who threw up, and that was only once.  Bekah just had he fever for a day and Doug got the fever plus a cough (Logan got the cough too). 

Today is payday!!  Woohoo lol.  Which means massive to do list and errands to run.  Today I have to

• put gas in my car
• go to walmart 
• go to YMCA to sign up and sign paper
• go to old navy to see if they have pants and such for the kids uniforms
• go to hobby lobby for yarn (might wait until this weekend sense I'll be at the mall then anyway for a hair cut)
  

I think thats it?  I wanna get as much of this done before noon as I can (noon is nap time lol) not sure if I'll be able to get it all done though. 

I also need to order Bekah's new glasses today.  I swear this kid is so hard on glasses it's not funny lol.  This pair is all bent out of shape from her brother stepping on them (she left them on the floor @@) and somehow she's managed to chip pieces out of the lenses.  I got the scratch resistant ones because her other ones were all scratched up in no time, so instead she just takes whole pieces out of them lol.  Granted the pair she has now are still wearable, but I'd rather put those up in a safe place for "just incase" she breaks the new ones again.

Anyway the dogs are bugging me to take them outside so I guess it's time to go.  Three more weeks until Jesse gets here!

I'm loosing track of days

Yep my life is that boring lol I cant keep days straight anymore.

So I decided (for now) that quitting smoking is for the birds.  I dont wanna deal with it right now....yep I know it's bad for me, and I do plan on quitting eventually....just not right now lol. 

I'm counting down the days until the LES comes out for the 1st! (it's like a pay stub for military for you folks who dont speak in acronyms)  To see if our extra pay has actually started.  Because if it has, my main priority is getting a gym membership at the local YMCA and I cant WAIT!  I want to start working out again so badly it's not funny.  Although I have to laugh at the fact that while I'm actually in the same state/house as my husband I have ZERO motivation to exercise but the minute we get separated, or he goes over sea's I go into "must loose weight" mode.  It's something though right?  It's also going to help that my friend Beth happens to go to the same gym and goes almost every day.  So that will be a nice kick in the butt that I'll need to make sure I keep going.  And my mom of all people even said that if she can get her sift switched at work she'll probably join too! 

One more month and Jesse will be here for three whole weeks before he has to leave for real.  I think it will be easier once he's actually out of the country.  It's not easy on either of us knowing he's so close but we cant see him.  I still think the decision to move out here early was the best one, but I cant lie and say it doesnt suck at the same time (sorry mom).   I think once I actually get off my butt and start doing stuff (going to the gym, and seeing friends that still live here) will make it easier too.  I gotta start doing SOMETHING to make the time go faster lol.