Saturday, August 30, 2008


My body is extremely sore today lol. Then again working out 4 days in a row will do that to a person...especially a someone who previously hasnt worked out in about a month. I'm happy with it though, makes me feel good to be doing something finally! And I cant help but love the motivation that I seem to have now.

I meant to blog yesterday, but just spaced it with all the stuff we had to do. Between working out, cleaning up the house and then having friends over for dinner it just slipped my mind lol.

I got 2 new workout dvd's from walmart yesterday. One was a dance one, and the other I cant remember haha. I do know that it comes with a huge resistance band, so hopefully it works! I plan on doing at least one of them today, so I'll have to make a post about how it goes.

I've been getting a lot of headaches lately. I'm pretty sure they are caused by the fact that I'm not drinking anywhere near as much caffeine as I used to hopefully my body gets used to it soon and the headaches stop! Because nothing gets rid of them and that is never fun!

I did step on the scale today....went back up 2lbs :( but I'm not TOO worried about it. I've still lost over a pound in only a couple of days, and it's also possible that the reason it even went up is because I've gained muscle. As we all know, muscle weighs more than fat! That and I'm still below 160, so that makes me happy haha. I still have over 5 weeks left to reach my 6 week goal, plenty of time!

Anyway gonna run for now, gonna finish my coffee, eat some breakfast and kick the kids/daddy out of the living room so I can go work out haha

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Melts like butter

Part of me wants to think my scale is broken lol it's either that or this whole eating in moderation and cutting some stuff out is working a lot better than I expected. Yesterday I was at 158.8, today I was at 157.4! That means I've lost over 3lbs in 3 days! How is that even possible? LOL

Worked out this AM for a little bit. Probably should have done more but I also know if I go all out every single day I'm just going to burn myself out. So I just did some time on the treadmill today, and I'm thinking about doing some palates when the baby goes down for another nap. I'm definitely feeling the workouts though! Even bending over to pick something up makes my abs hurt haha. Ate 2 eggs and half a bagel for breakfast with just a tiny bit of cream cheese (usually I put a ton of cream cheese on my bagels!) Now just trying to decide what to have for lunch. Tonight should be interesting sense I'm making spaghetti...thats one of the main things I over eat on! Hopefully I do good controlling it today.

I think I'm actually going to stay away from the scale for a few days. I know the first time the number goes up instead of down it's gonna be a blow. We'll see if I can actually do it though lol I tend to be a bit obsessive when I'm trying to loose in stepping on the scale 4 or 5 times a day.

Part of me cant help but kick myself, because so far it's been super easy to start dropping weight...if I had started when I should have, I could be really close to my goal weight by now!

22lbs total left to go!!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008


Ok so yesterday when I got on the scale it said 160.8...hence why I put 161 in my last post lol. I got on it this AM and it said 158.8! Now granted my weight yesterday probably wasnt accurate sense a) I weighed myself around 1pm, after I had already eaten a couple times that day and b) I just got off my period hehe so that could have dropped me about a pound as well. Either way it's nice to see the scale BELOW 160!

So this morning I had one cup of coffee, a bottle of water and 2 pieces of toast :) I also just spent 15 min jogging/walking on the treadmill, plus another 20 min lifting weights! Yay me!

Talked to Jesse last night about my plan, and this blog. He of course is totally on board with it (he does love me for me, but he knows I'm not happy about the way I look) but I can also tell he doesnt think I will stick to it. Cant blame him really, because I also said that when we got our treadmill and weight bench 6 months ago I'd be out there at least 3 times a week...yeah that worked for maybe the first 2 weeks...and then it went to once a week, once every two weeks, once a month ect. I think it finally got to where I went a whole month without going out there at all. So yeah I cant blame him at all for not believing me lol. Only way to change that though is to prove him wrong :) That and I know the more I work out, and the more the lbs and inches melt away the more motivated I will be!!

Anyway, off to shower! I am all sweaty and I still need to accomplish the other part of the promise to myself....which would be actually getting dressed, fixing my hair and putting on makeup :)

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

A few more things

So I've decided on a few more things to help me on this journey, because not only do I want to loose weight, but I want feel better about myself as well. My self esteem is in the gutter big time, and that wont help me loose weight at all. Low self esteem=lack of motivation to do something about the way I look. So to add on to my promises to myself
  • I will put at least the basics of makeup on every day (base, powder, mascara)
  • I will fix my hair every day (even if I dont plan on leaving the house)
  • I will get dressed before 10 am every day! (yep some days I dont get dressed until after noon...terrible!)
  • No more feeling sorry for myself! Especially when it's something thats in my power to change!

Anyway, here I sit making dinner. Decided to make homestyle bakes, it's some kind of rice and chicken asian thingie. I was going to eat it as well...right up until I saw that it has 1180mg of sodium! YIKES! So yeah the kids can eat that, and I think I'm going to have some hard boiled eggs, toast and a cup of mandarin need to end up retaining water the first day of the new "me"!

I dont know why the picture I posted is so huge....maybe I need to resize it and THEN add it to my page!

Time to loose some weight!

So I've decided I'm not happy with myself and the way I look anymore. There is no reason for me to be this way, all it will take is a little self motivation! Starting today I will be a better me! I want to be happy again. I want to feel sexy for myself and my husband again. I'm tired of hating having pictures taken because I dont like how I look.

So here are the promises to myself that I'm making right this minute.
  • NO MORE mindless snacking, if I'm going to snack it will be in moderation...not sitting down with a box of triscuits and eating all of them in one sitting!
  • I will eat breakfast every morning...even if it's a piece of toast. There is a reason they say breakfast is the most important meal of the day and it's time to start listening to that.
  • I will eat slower at meal time with smaller portions! Being a mom, I've gotten into the habit of eating my meals quickly so I could actually finish them before someone needed me for something. I also usually take way more than I need to eat and end up with a stomach ache because not only did I eat too fast, but I ate too much!
  • I will work out at least 3 to 4 times a week, that includes time on the treadmill and lifting some sort of weights. I will also do my palates dvd at least twice a week on top of working out.
  • I will limit myself to no more than 2 cups of coffee a day! I have been known to drink up to a pot a day by myself some days! I will also limit my soda intake to 2 cans of soda a day. Every other drink will either be water, juice or G2.

So those are my promises for right now...I'm sure there will be more later on.

As of today I weigh in at 161! I know to some that isnt a lot. But for a girl who was 115 soaking wet 8 years ago thats a hard pill to swallow. Yes I've had 3 kids, and I wouldnt give them up for anything, but at the same time I also know that I'm holding myself back from feeling good about the way I look. No I do not want to be that skinny again, nor would I ever be able to be that skinny again....I'm not built the same way I was back then. But I would like to loose at least 25 to 30lbs.

My 6 week goal right now is to weigh 152lbs by October 7th. Maybe it will work, maybe it wont. But I do plan on giving it my best shot! Nine pounds seems like so much right now, but I think I can do it! Wish me luck!